last year i fell asleep during an 11 pm show of the zodiac. last week i fell asleep during burn after reading. and the hunting party. at 9 pm.

i used to love the rides on A's kinetic. i'd put my head way back and see the trees and sky race by upside down. feel the wind go straight to the head through the ears (not much substance so it's a short route). yesterday i was on the highway and was scared of the bikes racing by. what if they tip over sideways?

i used to cut up my t-shirts and wear the first thing my fist found. today i change clothes at least five times before i leave home.

i used to jump nonstop through where the streets have no name. now i'm mostly panting and directionless by the time i see the dust cloud disappear without a trace.

i used to wonder where to go on a friday night. and with whom. today i can't wait to get home. and i know to whom.

i used to be young. and i'm proud to have survived.